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Song In My Head: Hurt Before

The other day I was leisurely waiting for my next patient when this old Corrs favorite started playing. I’ve always liked The Corrs, and I still regret missing their concert when I was living in the UK, thinking I’d have another chance someday. What chance? Royal Albert Hall and you make that stupid decision to miss it?

Anyway, the heart of the lyrics of most Corrs’ songs appeal to the common woman. For me, the passion in Andrea’s pleas, speak the truest emotions of women who are in pain, in love and hopeful. So when I was in highschool and living through my puppy love dramas, Andrea was my ADELE. Andrea Corr said the words I only whispered in my head.

Hurt Before

The Corrs

She’s a girl in a world,
she’s moving as fast as she goes
Loves her mum and her dad,
the only secure that she knows
But at night, she’s alone,
she’s dreaming of somebody new
Her someone for to hold,
she’s praying the dream will come true
Show me the way – show me, show me how
Help me be brave – for love
Show me the way – show me, tell me how
What do you say
There’s a pain in her heart,
she’s trying so hard to unwind
Makes her cry in the night,
when visions so real make her blind
Wants to break through the the fear
Erasing the scars from within
Start a new kind of being – she’s down and she’s praying again
Show me the way – show me, show me how
Help me be brave – for love
Show me the way – show me, tell me how
What do you say
You see she’s –
Turning the key, unlocking the door
Embracing the rollercoaster world
Stepping outside, with body and soul
Taking whatever future holds
Turning the key, unlocking the door
Embracing the rollercoaster world
Take it in stride, you’re just twenty-five
And you know we’ve all been hurt before[Violin solo]
You see she’s –
Turning the key, unlocking the door
Embracing the rollercoaster world
Stepping outside, with body and soul
Taking whatever future holds
Turning the key, unlocking the door
Embracing the rollercoaster world
Take it in stride, you’re just twenty-five
And you know we’ve all been hurt before
Yeah we’ve all been hurt before
So you’re not alone…, no…
You’re not alone…

Time Doesn’t Heal All Wounds

Have you been hurt before? I have been hurt many times. The most painful of it all, I wanted to shut down and to hide for a very long time, but there really wasn’t room for me to do so. In the song, Andrea Corr opens with, “She’s a girl in a world, she’s moving as fast as she goes”. And that’s exactly what I did because what’s true is that life goes on and it does not slow down for you, no matter how much pain you’re in. So I took about 2 days away from my life and forced myself back to the routine. Albeit in numbing pain, but I had to pretend I was fine in front of people, because the show must go on.

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Chin up because the show must go on.

It’s been awhile since that day. Much has happened since. People who hear my story usually want to hug me in pity or slap me in frustration, but those days are far away from me now. It’s been years. It’s been years since that unfortunate day but when I really pause long enough to remember, I can still feel the pain. There’s a pain in her heart, she’s trying so hard to unwind. Makes her cry in the night, when visions so real make her blind. Wants to break through the the fear, erasing the scars from within. Start a new kind of being – she’s down and she’s praying again”.

You see, when I am asked if I’m okay, I mean it when I answer “Yes”, because I really am. I’ve been okay for awhile, but it doesn’t mean that I don’t get sad anymore. And I guess that’s what happens when you get hurt, the wound heals but the scars–even when they fade, it leaves some trace. So at night when everything is silent around me, I pray desperately. What do I pray for? I pray for answers… resolutions… endings… freedom. I pray for a lot of things, but mostly I pray for peace of mind because that’s most comforting.

This song is beautiful.

I love it because it is honest–and often I’m not. It acknowledges pain, defeat and longing.

Truthfully, I do long for a happy ending. I don’t exactly know what kind; and it doesn’t really mean that I am unhappy right now, because in my heart I know I’m not. But there is this void, sometimes, and I don’t understand what it is.

Anyone who has been hurt before wish to never go through it again. But you see, no one can guarantee immunity from such things. You just… have faith. You see she’s -turning the key, unlocking the door, embracing the rollercoaster world. Stepping outside, with body and soul, taking whatever future holds.”  I grew up loving rollercoaster rides and I guess that’s a good thing because life dips and turns and twists, unexpectedly.

And ultimately, you have to survive through it all…

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I am a dentist and in between patients I am a writer. I have been a blogger since 2004 and writing is something that is most natural to me, like breathing air... words are my sustenance and this blog, is my breathing space.

4 thoughts on “Song In My Head: Hurt Before

  1. For a while, I was also struggling with “why?” I felt I needed that closure. But I reached the point when I accepted that sometimes you just never know why shit happens. And I realized that whether I was ok with not knowing or not ok with it, I’d still be in the same situation. So I embraced not knowing and kept going. I hope you’ll be able to find peace of mind. Maybe it doesn’t come with all the answers and just comes with being ok with the questions.

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    1. Oh I know what you mean Tisha. I used to ask the WHY questions until I realized I dont really need answers. Ure lucky somehow cus H is cooperating. Mine isnt. I pray always Tish… it’s all I can do. Alam mo ba we haven’t even filed. Nope. I just really want a proper end, alam mo? He said this year… actually he said this month. Oh well, let’s see.

      Thanks for this Tisha 😚

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